so this is goodbye

it's maureen's last day today at the college. the moment she gave me a big hug after i said bye, take care, i will miss you, we both broke down and cried. that made up for all the tears we were fighting last evening at dinner.

i suppose my sadness is inevitable, after all, she's been a mentor figure to me for the past 15 months, always encouraging, always believing in what i can acheive. we shared good times together and often laughed at the bad ones. it upsets me greatly that there's a hint of possibility that she was let go. this utterly disgusting asian society has no place for honest people like me, maureen and felix.

it is precisely why, i need and want to get away. from people who want me to conform, to be part of this whole big ugly corporate culture, to be the hypocrite that i will not be.

the end is the end is the beginning.

a small award

i've won a small photography award, my first.
it comes with $500, a group exhibition at singapore arts museum and free mentorship, can't say i'm displeased.

this helps to smoothen the ruffled feathers from work.
wow.